A few years ago, I was so lonely and afraid that I felt like there was a giant knife perpetually stuck into my gut (I know, not the nicest analogy, but it’s the truth!). I had just gotten out of a six-year relationship that was not only unhappy, but downright abusive. Why did I stay with the guy for so long? I was afraid to be single. I had dreams of starting a family someday, but my self-esteem at the time was so shot that I didn’t think it was possible for me to find anyone else–someone who actually treated me well and who made me happy.
I wish I could say that the reason I finally got out of that relationship was that I finally realized how badly it was destroying me emotionally, but that’s not what happened at all. I only left once things got so bad that I was more afraid to stay with him than be “alone.”
A couple of months after the end of that relationship, some relatives of mine in Wyoming took me to a year-round Christmas shop. Although it was August at the time, they knew that Christmas was my favorite holiday. They told me to pick out whatever I wanted. After perusing the store for quite some time, I settled on a simple snow globe. Inside that little wintry orb was a father and his two children, decorating an evergreen tree for Christmas.
Why, out of all things, did I choose this? Even though I was hurting inside, I decided that I wasn’t going to give up hope. I told myself that no matter how fragile and empty and afraid I felt at the time, I was still going to have that family I always wanted. I would have a husband who really loved me, and maybe someday we would all decorate a tree together, just like in that little globe. For a long time, it seemed like a very far-off dream.
I was right to believe. I began to see that dream come true just this past week, when my husband and I dug out all our boxes of Christmas decorations and put up our very first Christmas tree together as a married couple. All I could think about the whole time was that magical little snow globe.
If you’re single and feeling like I once did, have faith. As long as you believe that you will have love in your life someday, you will. When you have a positive attitude about your life, things just seem to work in your favor: You discover wonderful opportunities, and you attract wonderful people (not just potential dates, but good friends, too!).
This holiday season, relish the precious people who are in your life right now. Enjoy the experiences you are having, and take pride in how much stronger you are growing with every challenge you face. And remember that as long as you have faith, the truest, most beautiful love you could ever imagine is waiting for you just around the corner!
Love, Hope, & Prayers